I realise the struggle is not to implement change but to commit to it once made…
Still time for a thought or two, life needs to be more about humility, compassion and empathy, unfortunately its all about selfishness, greed and dishonesty…. And because of this, the world’s future is thoroughly compromised. But, it’s up the good in all of us to fight for its right to usurp the evil, it’s doesn’t happen by default!
Pain, Love, Doubt, Beauty, Death, Wonder… and all the others that come to mind, dependent on my state of senses!
So here we go, committed to being healthier, cutting sugar by 70%, carbs by 50% and shitty attitude by 92.6%, here goes!
Attitude is THE key to a new trajectory, to manifest it in a meaningful manner for a significant period IS crucial, this so conscious actions/processes and ‘headspace’ become subconscious.
This shift in attitude is a must in breaking old, grey, compromised thoughts and ideologies. There is too little left of substance, to meager a vestige, BUT there is potential and hope… Deep in the darkness there is always the promise of light, and what it can bring! And I hunt the light in 2017!
So much potential and technically it was a good year, and yet… it could’ve been so much more, 90% of the blame lies squarely at my feet though. You know when you sabotage yourself, like a typical Jeckyl and Hyde soap opera. Gotta find a way to believe in the ‘positiveness’ as a default, not as a temporary respite… but I dunno how! Frustrating as hell, and the facade is so tiresome. Not about being unhappy but when one sees the potential and it keeps languishing, one gets rather peeved!
If you consider integrity as a defining characteristic and only you can know whether it’s you or a facade of you that exhibits that integrity, then maybe it’s outside your grasp, and you’re wasting too much time trying to bullshit yourself…
Have you ever thought quite specifically about whether you actually believe in yourself, what it means if you do, but also what consequences a lack of true faith in your ability to action your life into what you want it to be means? It’s tougher than you think cos unfortunately there is always some dependency on how we engage with the world and those around us…
And if they (be it directly or indirectly) are at odds with our ‘actioning’ well then we always tend to compromise, and in that compromise we will always be worse off cos we as the ‘actioner’ will lose a bit of our ‘us’ and the world and/or the others only compromise on perception or process, nothing unto themselves.
So we often lose, bit by bit those ‘special’ bits of ourselves by default just by trying to stay true to ‘our faith in ourself’.
Gotta keep fighting the good fight, avoid the grey, it ain’t you!